Stopping is Not That Simple

I've decided to stop.

Stop our contact, messages, jokes and make it looks like really just between 'friends'. Before my love getting bigger.. Before the feeling to have him getting stronger..

Aku udah curhat sana-sini, ya emang tipikal gampang panik dan nggak bisa mikir sendiri. And most of them said that I gotta stop. He's already been taken, that's the main reason. Mau dianggep cewek apa aku ini? Bisa-bisa kalo si R tau, langsung gembar-gembor bilang aku mau ngerebut. And neither me nor my friends want that happen.

Him : We are just friends, ga lebih :)

Me : Yes, I know. Justru itu, nggak usah smsan kalo kamu nggak ada masalah.

Him : Aku cuma pengen punya temen, kalo kamu nggak suka ya udah.

Me : Pacarmu bisa salah paham. Aku gak pengen itu bikin kalian tengkar.

Him : Hm, oke. Smsan seperlunya aja kan? Iya.

And it just ended like that. Easy, huh? Not for me. Don't you know it is too hard for me? Mess and confused. I dont know what I really feel. Whether this regret? My tears fall and could not be stopped...

messy,