They broke up. And it just did not end well.
We texted from about 2 hours ago, and it was there he told me the complete story. I've told you before that we're just like bestfriends, right? We share problems and give the solution? Yeah, that's what we just did. He, at least.
Itu bukan yang pertama kali, atau kedua dan ketiga. That is just like their 'habits' in making the relationship work. What a weird way -__- Their relationship has been running long enough, 1 year and 4 months. But I never really understand why they often quarreled. Even because of small things. Nggak ngerti dan heran. Aku jadi mikir, mereka ini masih saling sayang atau enggak. Dan si cewek yang selalu mengakhiri hubungan. Hmm not a good decision..
Aku bukan dokter cinta, or person who experts in romance. Aku cuma cewek biasa yang udah hampir 3 tahun jomblo, nggak manggil cowok manapun dengan panggilan spesial kayak "sayang", "sweety, atau "beybeh". Maybe sounded very strange when I'm saying "You can't be like that to your boyfriend" or "JANGAN SELINGKUH!" karena kamu pasti mikir aku nggak tau apa-apa. Tapi bertindak sebagai seorang normal, menurutku sembarangan ngomong "Putus" bukanlah hal yang bijaksana. Bisa bikin capek dan males. Nggak interest lagi buat ngelanjutin hubungan. That's what he said. He didn't even want to give an explanation to her. "Biarin aja, aku udah capek." Hh, and I just couldn't say anything but "sabar ya.. kalo masih sayang juga balik kok. Dia masih emosi."
The bad thing is... that 'break up' news had just awakened the evil side of me. There's a bit happy feeling inside my heart. A bit, really ⌣́_⌣̀. Well I don't wanna pretend a thing, but that little feeling has successfully made me jump around ~(‾▿‾)~. I dont have any plan to, you know if you have thought it, take him or something. I'm not that insane, geez! I love him, yeah but dont want to take that so far. We're still bestfriends, that's enough for me. At least this time :)
"When you decided to have a crush in someone, and start a serious relationship with him, you have to commit it. Do it well, as best as you can. Problems come daily, maybe hourly. But use it to make you better. Face it together, don't just run like saying 'break up' words without hard-thinking. Childish. And later, you'll realize that your heart still belong to him and want him back to your side." -Me
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