Memorable 17 for You:)

Hello societies! Fixed mindset, everything changes when I'm in a relationship.

Including, my sacrifice. Aku nggak pernah merasa perlu repot-repot memikirkan hal-hal seputar hadiah untuk orang yang spesial. Baru sekarang. Ya karena selama itu, sekitar 3 tahun, aku nggak minat buat punya pacar (-_-) Jadi begitu deket hari ultah pacar, tanggal 22 Mei lalu, aku serba ketar-ketir. Dan tingkahku, mulai dari apa yang harus dipersiapkan dan dibeli, jadi serba ekstrem.

I am about to share some pictures of Danial's birthday. Not party, note that. Cuma perayaan kecil-kecilan. Hihihi, a little surprise from me. Ceritanya siang itu dia lagi les fisika sepulang sekolah, tanpa tahu kalo aku lagi merencanakan semuanya sampai matang. Begitu dia mulai les, langsung aku dateng ke rumahnya grudukan bareng Dysta, Jannah, Ujik, Adit, Yulyan. I was glad to see him laughing.

And glad to know that my surprise planning was almost perfectly success! :D Here are some picts:

The birthday cake!

Omagahh, he is laughing! :3 And I'm just giggling awkwardly-_-

 Tiup lilin! Make a wish then :) (aku melongo)

Acara sok romantis: suap-suapan. Aku yang malu-malu kucing dan dia yang santai abis.

CRAZY HANDSOME. Mesmerizing. Speechless.

Oh, done uploading the photos! Yeyyy... Kinda tiring actually, the connection doesn't work so well. But I'm superrr excited. I do love those pictures so bad, good memories of my high school journey. I'll keep that in the photo album, soon. 

Ow! Especially the last photo above. He looks absolutely gorgeous in his simple smile. Ya senyum sederhana banget kan -_- Nggak mengeluarkan banyak energi tapi hasilnya kece terus. Sebenernya sebelahnya itu ada aku, but I think, no need to be posted here. Bukan konsumsi publik :p

That is all for today posting.

Thank you for your generousity. Hope you enjoy reading, anybody deh! Happy to share this beautiful story of my own. Another story next time? Definitely yes.

Bye-bye universe.. Love y'all.

When Sagitarius Miss Gemini

I'm exactly sure what my current feelings are called right now

If you ask me, "Are you sure?" in three times, then I will answer it with three times 'Yes of course'.

It just feels like having some fresh air in a new life, after a thousand years being buried in the deep hollow. So 'woaahhhh', relieved. 

Maybe that's because I've found the sun. The spirit, that has a big contribution in forcing me to get out from the darksome scope.

Actually, it's You. Kamu. 

Aku tidak berharap banyak terhadap kata 'Kita'. Aku tidak berharap banyak kepada hari-hari di depan yang menunggu kita menjemput mereka. Aku tidak berharap banyak pada suara tawa. Aku hanya tahu bahwa aku senang menjalani hari-hari denganmu. Aku hanya tahu bahwa aku dan kamu punya sesuatu untuk merubah yang buruk menjadi baik. Kamu tahu perasaan ini? Tidak usah dijawab. Karena aku adalah kamu, dan kamu adalah aku. - Mirdza Annisa ☺

I started to miss you as soon as we said goodbye. Dear Gemini, I like you a lot. Like a lot :)

Sagitarius,

The Lady is Ready to Love Again.

Hello. Sorry for the absence. I'm back to share a thing. It's fenomenal. At least for myself.
I think I am ready to love again.
Bada-bing!

Haha, after that painful time,  baru sekarang aku bisa bergerak lagi. Pelan-pelan memang, mungkin merangkak. Setidaknya aku bisa berhenti melempari sumpah serapah, kata-kata yang sangat bad-judgemental kepada para laki-laki. Dan itu kemajuan yang bagus ;)

I like... someone. No words can describe him perfectly, exactly. Aku menyimpannya rapat-rapat di memori kepala. Dan hati, tentu saja. Aku iseng-iseng buka lirik lagunya Lady Antebellum. Somewhere Love Remains, Ready to Love Again, Cold as Stone dan Love I've Found in You. Judulnya menarik, belum denger lagunya aku udah suka. Terutama yang Ready to Love Again, really pictures my story.

Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognize my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me
But it's time for me to let it go

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again


Itu aku kasih setengah liriknya, yang lain cuma diulang-ulang kok. How's it?

Hidup Paskibra 2011!

Selamat siang.

Pagi tadi aku pulang ke rumah dari karantina Paskibra di Hotel Saptanawa. Sekitar jam 10. And totally, capek, ngantuk! Sama sekali nggak punya rencana tentang apa yang mau dilakukan selain tidur.

Btw, cepet banget. Udah kayak halilintar aja, main 'JDERR' trus ngilang. Aku mulai karantina tanggal 16 Agustus. Habis gladi bersih langsung cabut ke hotel. Kerjaan di hotel ya makan-tidur-pup. Kamar cewek-cewek dapet yang paling belakang, koridor lorong. Benar-benar terasing. Tau nggak, tanggal 16 malemnya, aku nggak bisa tidur karena mikirin besok. Alhasil, kita cewe-cewe ngerumpi sambil makan es krim delivery. Bukannya makin bisa ngontrol mulut, yang ada malah tambah kepo aja. Khas ibu-ibu -_-

Besok paginya tanggal 17 Agustus. Hari-H tuh. Bernapas aja sesek saking deg-degannya. Kita berangkat ke alun alun jam 8, tapi tau mulai upacara jam berapa? 10. Iya, nunggu 2 jam. Itu sama sekali nggak membuat tenang. Intinya pengibaran lancar, penurunan pun juga. Legaaaahhh bukann mainnn.... Kita balik ke hotel buat persiapan resepsi jam 8 malam.

Kira-kira itu lah yang bisa aku bagi buat kalian di sini. Nggak perlu terlalu detail. Di bawah ini ada fotoku sama temen-temen, satu aja. Yang lain kalian bisa lihat di akun Facebook-ku :D

Hayoo tebak aku yang mana? :p

That's all! Aku lanjut bobok aahhh ~

Sunny Monday

Halo, Selamat pagi Senin!

Nggak sempat menghirup udara jam 6 pagi sambil jogging. Aku bangun jam sembilaannn \(ˇ▽ˇ)/ hahaa ceilaah seneng amat -__- Karena ini hari pertama liburan! Senin yang ceria dan indah. Biasanya hari paling dibenci, but not for today :D

So, aku masih dalam kondisi bersyukur sekarang setelah nerima hasil rapot yang gak terduga. Separuh nggak sadar gitu deh. Gimanapun hasilnya aku kudu bisa masuk IPA, and God granted my wish. Lega banget jadinya njalanin liburan ini. Nggak mikirin matematika dkk buat tes lagi =)

Dan sekarang aku sibuk mikir kegiatan apa yang bisa aku lakuin buat 3 minggu ke depan. Lamanyaa (╯_╰) Yang pasti, muter aja seputar buku dan film. Dan semua bukuku; novel atau komik udah kebaca semua. Ajegile, aku pengen beli novel baruuuuu.. Tapi nggak ada duit T--T Aku sampe buka website Gramedia dan nyatet semua judul novel yang pengen aku beli. 

Siang ini aku mau hunting teenlit di Togamas atau Mida Pustaka. Mungkin Jingga dan Senja sama Jingga dalam Elegi kali ya? Sekalian aku mau pinjem film A Walk to Remember di rental DVD. Semoga aja ada yah..

Selesai dulu ya, mau breakfast. Secepatnya aku kabari lagi ;)

holidays,

Another Prince Charming

Soooooo charming.. Can't describe, he's more than word. I'm captivated by you x__X

I wonder... How could he be soo gorgeous? Dan.. tunggu. Itu senyum miring? Dia punya senyum miring? Adorable! Whataya think? (˘⌣˘ )

Ahh, ya. Named Logan Lerman. Of course you've already known him! ~(˘▾˘~) ~(˘▾˘)~ (~˘▾˘)~

blink-blink,

I Want A Guy Like Landon Carter!

Yeah. I think he must behaved like Landon Carter, and faced just like the mixture of Landon Carter-Shane West. Cute plus charming. Gallant, with a proportional body; not a giant. NOT hard-handed and cruel. Normal haircut; no mohawk, neither spike nor long-haired. Polite. Okay, was a troublemaker at school, but then he changes into the warmest guy after knowing me. Punya mata yang "mengintimidasi" dan "berkuasa". You know, yang membuat kita ngga bosan natap matanya. Has sweet, fascinating smile only for me and normal cold smile for other girls. Can be not only a boyfriend, but also a father, a brother, and a bestfriend. Comfortable and easy to talk to. Has a shoulder to cry on, and a calm hug. Romantic, or at least he will do anything that can make me melt like an ice cream. Full of surprises u,u 

The most important thing for him is seeing me smile, and happy ofcourse. No matter how hard, how impossible my dreams are, he will always try and make efforts to make it happen. Never say NO or GIVE UP, just for appearing a smile.

Wow. SUPER WOW. \(ˇ▽ˇ)/

You may think that i'm a freak. But there's no wrong in dreaming, right? Every girl has her own guy-types, me either. But actually, having a guy that really understand girls feeling and think that girls heart are too precious to be offended, are enough. The best and enough for me. He wont break my heart and always besides. And I wont feel the pain of heartbreaking again :")

God, you hear me, you read all my mind ;) I want a guy like that.. Does he exist out there? Mooommmyy, get me one pleasssseeeeee (˘̩̩̩⌣˘̩̩̩) 

begging,

Hi June!

Welcome June, Goodbye May! \(´▽`)/

What are your plans for this month, guys? June means one for me, HOLIDAY. Yeah, and get the school report too ⌣́_⌣̀ Horrible. Whatever they are, I hope your plans definitely make you happy and should make you better.

Enjoy your spring! And June, be nice to me... Please? Oh, thanks a lot :)

be friendly,

Sweet Randomness

Girl  : We're best friends right?
Boy : Yes, of course.
Girl  : So be honest to me, who do you like?
Boy : No ne. But I love someone.
Girl  : Ohh, she must be very lucky.
Boy : Definitely. I've loved her ever since I met her.
Girl  : Really? Well, since we're best friend, I wanna meet her. Go call her!
Boy : Hm okay.
*The boy takes out his phone, dials her number, and phones her*
Girl  : Wait. Hold on, I think I'm getting a call.
*Answer the phone*
Girl  : Hello..
Boy : Hey, I Love You.


corny,

Shane West and A Walk to Remember

Bonsoir, fellas! I am now enjoying my last free day before having final school exam. Tomorrow is the day, first lesson is Chemistry then ICT. I just feel lousy, because I know I am not great at Chemistry stuffs (⌣_⌣") I planned to study right after my afternoon bath, but the reality isn't walking on the same path. I'm sitting in front of my television, staying tune on HBO. Watch a film. Yes, watch a film, instead of studying. Then I decide to study Chemistry later. Haha..

I wanna review a movie for you. I'm so excited to do that, because I'm watching it now. It maybe an old movie. Kalo ga salah rilis tahun 2002 o__0 And I regret myself of being late to watch it now, 2011. Comments: Grweaat! Fabulous! Sooo romantic (♥ε♥) Ahhh so many comments only in my thought for this movie. Check the movie poster below..

And I have this one too

Oh my God (┌','┐) film ini baguuss banget! Coba sekarang ortuku ga di rumah, aku nonton sendiri, pasti udah nangis. The main story, if you see from the cover, of course, Love. Tapi sebenernya film ini bercerita banyak hal. Cowok bengal yang suka bikin onar, Landon Carter, bisa berubah jadi cowok yang sweet dan yakin akan cita-citanya gara-gara cewek. She's Jamie Sullivan, cewek alim yang cupu, katrok, pakaiannya nggak ngikutin tren mode, but special and brilliant. Jamie mengajarkan banyak hal ke Landon, mulai dari ngapalin dialog drama, akting, menghargai orang lain, sampe ke masalah keyakinan. Awalnya Landon yang ikut-ikutan temennya suka ngeledekin si Cupu Jamie, akhirnya malah jatuh cinta. They were together as a couple. 

Tapi mulai datang konflik. Jamie ternyata mengidap leukimia akut, dan udah pasrah. Dia berhenti berobat selama dua tahun dan bersikap normal sampai ketemu Landon itu. The saddest part of this movie is that Jamie akhirnya meninggal, Landon sendirian. Tapi mereka menikah dulu sebelumnya, dan Jamie jadi cinta terakhir Landon. Meskipun udah meninggal, Landon tetep move on, justru dia berhasil mewujudkan cita-citanya jadi dokter. Dan Jamie tetep menginspirasi dia melakukan segalanya. Wonderful, eh? Landon jatuh cinta pada Jamie karena kagum akan kegigihannya, kepandaiannya dalam berkata-kata, dan bakatnya yang banyak. Terbuka lah matanya kalo Jamie itu ternyata cantik. Cantik hati, dan fisik. That's true love :")

Ohh, whatta sweet story, sweet Landon.. and very touching. Selain dari segi cerita, aku suka juga sama si Landon Carter :3 Diperankan oleh Shane West. Oke, Mandy Moore cantik, tapi aku masih suka laki. So, here is his pict!

Cuuteee isn't it? Okelah, wajahnya mencureng gitu ._. tapi buat aku justru di situ kerennya :D Alisnya deket sama mata, jadi dia pas banget jadi orang jahat. I dont know how old is he now, I haven't searched in Wikipedia, but his acting is amazing! Cowok bengal yang dingin. Cool. And he is gorgeous too! Udah lama aku ga pernah se-obsessed ini sama artis cowok. Terakhir, seingetku si Daniel Radcliffe waktu Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. Robert Pattinson, boleh lah, sedikit nge-fans tapi gak freaky. But this one... Uwh (ˇOˇ)-o)ˇзˇ) Aku punya feeling, Shane West mungkin udah tua sekarang.. 27-28 kali ya? Kalo diliat sebenernya Shane West berpotensi tuh jadi Edward Cullen. Ganteng, putih, proporsional, gagah, dan mukanya garang. Kesan pertama yang harus dapet kalo kita liat cowok vampir. Tapi I think waktu casting dia udah terlalu tua, dibanding Robert yang masih 23 waktu itu. So, lose. No problem, You're sweet, that's all ╭(^▽^)╯

Allright guys! Segitu aja movie review-nya. kalian udah nonton A Walk to Remember? Disarankan cepet nonton, key? Aku udah telat 9 tahun. And my feeling is so messing up. Nyesel, kesel, blablabla. Sekarang film itu bahkan udah ga dibahas lagi, jadi aku nikmatin sendirian sementara orang-orang lain mungkin udah pada mblenger. My next planning is read the novel of this movie with the same title written by Nicholas Sparks. Aku ragu masih diterbitin, karena terbit pertama pasti sebelum tahun 2002, but I'll try to contact Gramedia. Well, finish for now, I'll post again another time. Sayonara └(∵)┐

touching,

Telat, Bodo!

White Horse - Taylor Swift

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel

Comes out just when you need it to

As I paced back and forth all this time

Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on

The days drag on

Stupid girl,

I should have known, I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

Baby I was naive,

Got lost in your eyes

And never really had a chance

My mistake, I didn't know to be in love

You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams

About you and me

Happy endings

Now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

And there you are on your knees,

Begging for forgiveness, begging for me

Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rear view mirror disappearing now

And it's too late for you and your white horse

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa

Try and catch me now

Oh, it's too late

To catch me now 

I know this moment will come. You run back to me, then apologize for everything you did. Aku tahu? Oh yeah, karena dia bukan orang yang konsisten. Jelas terlihat waktu dia mengambil keputusan itu, dia masih separuh kerasukan. I think he didn't know what he wanted. Tapi aku nggak menyangka akan secepat ini.. Mikir nggak sih aku masih dalam kondisi terpuruk sekarang? Jangka waktunya masih terpaut pendek lho, kamu langsung balik. Haha, nyesel? :)

Kamu bilang "aku ngerasa salah". Harus! Kalo enggak berarti emang hati kamu batu, otak kamu mati. "Aku nyesel" "Gak akan aku ulangi lagi", I have to think twice; Oh no, think more than twice. Waktu nggak bisa dibalikin. Kesempatan itu mahal harganya, boy :) Jangan kamu kira bisa bolak-balik singgah ke aku dan dia kayak halte bis. Aku bukan cuma sekedar rumah singgah. Aku istana kolosal yang pintunya belum berhasil terbuka dengan baik. Gembok pagernya sampe hampir karatan tuh, nunggu seseorang yang bisa minyakin. Haha (˘⌣˘ )

InsyaAllah, itu bukan kamu. Kamu udah jahat. Pergi, cari aja mainan lain. Aku terlalu bagus buat jadi mainanmu. Beli aja di loakan, kalo tujuanmu cuma main-kalo-bosen-buang :)

Aku nggak nangis lho. Paling tidak, sudah mereda. Aku sadar air mataku terlalu berharga buat kamu. Inget itu baik-baik ya :)

Oh, ya mending kamu cepetan pergi deh. Males liat mukamu sih. Btw, aku pemaaf dan bukan pendendam. Jadi nggak usah sampe sujud-sujud di kakiku gitu, lagi ;) Bye!

smirk,

Fly High Over Heels

I am still believing in the fairy tales
Dreaming round the world with hot air ballon
Kiss the sweet plain cloud
and purposed by a prince alike a princess

Carnival still in my cerebellum
Sweet, fireworks, marry go around ticket I keep for you

Hey mister
Your electric smile haunt me everyday
Be my valentine

But everything that’s in my mind is here
right in front of my eyes
And you’re the one who got me here
Kidnap me like peterpan do to his wendy
Teach me ride the wind
And bring me to your Neverland
Againts the pirate
Cross the sea
I do, I'll do with always hold your hand

But mister
Please treat me special,
Because I'm silly, over-romantic, and clumsy
If I near with you
your my drugs, my ecstasy
Poisoned all my body 'till I die
Make me fly, high over heels, and hallucinate

But don't be a player
Make me special,
'cause darling you're the only exception :)

words,

Choice ALWAYS Exists in Life. Face it, No Matter What.

Greeting, Twinkies! How's life? Are you doing fine? I hope so. Because life seems getting harder, and need much sweat to swallow it. Consider it a bitter pill you have to drink. 

Yeah, I'm still healthy. What a blessed. Quite many activities I've been through, and still alive. I think it's only suggestion. If you suggest yourself can do anything, so you can. This week is tough. I had a choir rehearsal for graduation preparation since about 3 weeks ago. Juga banyak rapat Passus dan OSIS. Then busy of doing school task, bentar lagi kan penjurusan kelas dua, tanggal 27 Mei. Haaa penjurusan, mimpi buruk deh (┌_┐). Dibilang takut, ya iya takut banget. Rasanya pelajaran SMA ini susah, and I still dont feel comfort here. 

What I wanna share here really is, tentang ke-nggak-pinternya sekolahku ngatur jadwal. Bikin geregetan. Aku udah ikutan latian Padus buat persiapan kelulusan. Lagunya banyak, jadi harus dateng latian. Aku suka dress yang nanti dipake anak Padus, ungu corak batik. And I really wanna join the graduation. But, the statement that say "manusia bermimpi, tapi Tuhan yang memutuskan" terjadi ke aku. Ya, itu memang bener, tapi aku ga nyangka ngalamin bahkan di saat semuanya sempurna. Aku kira semua bakal berjalan lancar, karena aku udah hapal lagu-lagunya dan excited. Ternyata... God says Not this time. Beberapa hari lalu aku dapet kabar dari senior Passus, tanggal 24 Mei ada seleksi Paskib Kabupaten di Pemda. Anak Passus yang kelas 10 ikut semua. Dan tanggal 24 itu tanggal wisuda...

I mean WHAT?! Okey, aku udah nunggu seleksi Paskib itu sejak lama, pengen ikut. Tapi gak gini jugaaaaak (╥_╥) Kenapa harinya harus samaaa Ya Allaahhh :'( Aku pikir akhirnya latian Padusku percuma. Udah berharap tinggi ternyata gini. And of course I choose the selection! Kesempatan emas kayak gitu cuma sekali setahun. But still... HH. Aku jadi superkesel sama sekolah. Emangnya gak ada yang kroscek dulu apa kapan seleksi Paskib diadain? Heran, kenapa ga tanya ke Dinas sebelumnya. Gak smart, at all (˘_˘٥) 

That's make me feel upset. I know, Life is full of choice, and you have to be ready when you required to select it one, just one. Yeah because you can't do a lot of things in a same time, rite? I think, gampang aja milihnya kalo pilihan itu yang satu membawa kebaikan, yang satu membawa keburukan. Kita pasti milih yang ngasih keuntungan buat kita kan? Orang normal pasti milih itu. But how if the one is good for us, while the other is also good? Keduanya sama-sama hal yang kita sukai dan terjadi dalam waktu yang sama. Even like that, we still have to choose! Oh, kejammmm -___-

Well, that's all. Pray for me please, I am on a little stress. Gotta study for the final exam. And wish me choose the best major, key? Pilihan pertama IPA, jelas, but then I think about Language major. Interesting too. So, dilema. And I face the choice again! Urgh ⌣́_⌣̀ See ya around! ^^

upset,

  

Loving You is... Forbidden :(

They broke up. And it just did not end well.

We texted from about 2 hours ago, and it was there he told me the complete story. I've told you before that we're just like bestfriends, right? We share problems and give the solution? Yeah, that's what we just did. He, at least.

Itu bukan yang pertama kali, atau kedua dan ketiga. That is just like their 'habits' in making the relationship work. What a weird way -__- Their relationship has been running long enough, 1 year and 4 months. But I never really understand why they often quarreled. Even because of small things. Nggak ngerti dan heran. Aku jadi mikir, mereka ini masih saling sayang atau enggak. Dan si cewek yang selalu mengakhiri hubungan. Hmm not a good decision..

Aku bukan dokter cinta, or person who experts in romance. Aku cuma cewek biasa yang udah hampir 3 tahun jomblo, nggak manggil cowok manapun dengan panggilan spesial kayak "sayang", "sweety, atau "beybeh". Maybe sounded very strange when I'm saying "You can't be like that to your boyfriend" or "JANGAN SELINGKUH!" karena kamu pasti mikir aku nggak tau apa-apa. Tapi bertindak sebagai seorang normal, menurutku sembarangan ngomong "Putus" bukanlah hal yang bijaksana. Bisa bikin capek dan males. Nggak interest lagi buat ngelanjutin hubungan. That's what he said. He didn't even want to give an explanation to her. "Biarin aja, aku udah capek." Hh, and I just couldn't say anything but "sabar ya.. kalo masih sayang juga balik kok. Dia masih emosi."

The bad thing is... that 'break up' news had just awakened the evil side of me. There's a bit happy feeling inside my heart. A bit, really ⌣́_⌣̀. Well I don't wanna pretend a thing, but that little feeling has successfully made me jump around  ~(‾▿‾)~. I dont have any plan to, you know if you have thought it, take him or something. I'm not that insane, geez! I love him, yeah but dont want to take that so far. We're still bestfriends, that's enough for me. At least this time :)

"When you decided to have a crush in someone, and start a serious relationship with him, you have to commit it. Do it well, as best as you can. Problems come daily, maybe hourly. But use it to make you better. Face it together, don't just run like saying 'break up' words without hard-thinking. Childish. And later, you'll realize that your heart still belong to him and want him back to your side." -Me  

loving...

GOTCHA! I've Found You :p

Heyyaaaa world! 

Welcome back with me here, on my online journal. What's your bussiness lately? I mean things that really make you busy until feel-like-can't-breath. Do you have any? I have one, not really drain my time but busy enough. I with my couple of friends are organize a mid-term activity, which is always held after examination. But, this time we hold this event earlier, just to fill the three-free days. Did I say 'free day of school'? Yeah, I really mean it. What a surprise actually, extra bonus in my school!    \(´▽`)/

It doesn't happen without a reason, ofc. My eleven grader seniors are going to have a trip to Bali. Kinda such a routine when we enter the eleven grade. And some teachers are going to come with them. Then the twelve graders are still staying at school, 'eating' lessons. There are only we left, the ten graders, so I and some friends as members of Students Organization will take care of it. It's really tiring, but cool! Ahahaa wish we luck and can organize this well ;)

Anyway, talk about love... there's nothing :D Yeah, still the same, no desire in having boyfriend. Yet. But, you may know, I think I'm interested in someone. Yahohoooo  ~(‾▿‾)~

A bit description, he's my class neighbor. Our class adjacent. He's impressive and looks really gentle. Kind, cheerful, and talkative enough. Orangnya humoris dan JAIL banget  (¬_¬") Aku udah tau dia dari awal sih, tapi cuma sekedar tau. Dan baru dekat akhir-akhir ini, as friends. Teman curhat, tepatnya. Kita share masalah cukup banyak dan saling memberi nasihat. Sifatnya yang jail itu bikin aku kesel abis -___-" Dia OSIS juga kayak aku, sekarang jadi ketupel KTS (Kegiatan Tengah Semester). Sempet aku ditunjuk dia jadi sekretarisnya, tapi noway deh yaa lagi capek-capeknya hh. 

Bad news-nya adalah.. He's already taken. Unavailable! Oh c'mon babe, I'm loving a wrong person. Hubungan dia sama si pacar yang notabene masih kelas 9 SMP cukup lama, setahun 4 bulan. Tapi ricuh, banyak masalah, dan sering tengkar ga jelas. Dia curhat banyak tentang itu ke aku, bikin panas aja :o Haaah really bad :( Tapi no problem lah, tujuanku kenal dia nggak buat pedekate kok, rasa suka ini muncul sekarang-sekarang aja. Dan belum tumbuh besar, jadi harus cepet-cepet dikontrol.

Okay, world enough today's posting. Seeya later with another 'him' story! :p

randoms,

    

Happy New Year All!! :D

Happy New Year ALL! :D Welcome 2011, 'I'm sorry goodbye' for 2010 

Big thanks to my Almighty God, Allah SWT, because of Him I still could breathe and savor the world :))

Huge apologize to my parents&families, friends, and even enemies haha, because perfection doesn't exist. Everyone has made mistakes. And thanks, you guys gave me a lotta things that notable to be remembered and learned :))

Really wish for a better live this year. I wish me&my family always healthy and get the best. I wish I can be wiser and more patient in facing problems, not easy to be panic, solve problems calmly. I wish I can be more productive and more effective in doing something. I wish I can be an active, not a passive anymore. I wish...

Haha I think it will never be enough, countless hopes. Amin, read more about my resolution in the next post :)

Sekarang 1 Januari 2011. 01-01-11 ~ whatta pretty date <3 bagus banget deh buat jadi tanggal jadian haha. Hari ini temenku ada yang baru ditembak, what a lucky. Tepat pergantian tahun, waktu kita rame-rame tiup terompet sama main mercon. Jadi ngiri -__- huuuh. Nggak terlalu berharap tahun ini dapet pacar kok hahaha :D complicated, belum ada yang cocok. Klik. Hm, okelah ya. Ngantuk berat ToT baru dateng dari kumpul sama temen ngerayain tahun baru. Cheers and smilee :)

good things,

Be a Bookworm in a Week

Hellaww spartans!

How's your holidays? Everything's great right? Feel bored anyway? Haaah just relax and enjoy yer holidays, guys because we dont know when it will come back. 

Aku sendiri cukup menikmatinya. Nggak ada rasa bosan yang biasanya datang. What do you do in this lovely holiday? Hang out with some friends or go to grandma's house? Aku lebih memilih stay at home aja lah. Jangan heran tapi emang aku bisa dibilang termasuk cewek rumahan (?) Di rumah itu tempat paling nyaman, #topabes! Dulu SMP-ku yang menempati posisi itu, tapi sekarang aku udah nggak SMP lagi kan?

I just do usual things, and standard. Maybe most people think they're not even interesting. People love gathering and chilling out with friends in their holidays. Most; but doesn't mean I dont love to do that too. Kali ini pengen lebih tenang, karena hari-hari biasa aku jarang di rumah. So cuma baca-baca buku dan main game. Apa kubilang, standard kan? Tapi kegiatan yang santai banget. Aku menemukan gereget membaca buku seperti dulu. Sempat 'menghilang' karena nggak ada waktu baca novel dan semacamnya, sekarang ada kesempatan; rasanya lega buanget. Bacaannya ringan aja, bukan ensiklopedi atau buku politik. Kayak komik dan novel-novel; sapa sih yang ga suka baca komik atau novel? Ada: mereka yang nggak suka baca buku. 

Di liburan ini aku nyadar kalo komik seru nggak melulu Detective Conan. Haha iya banget, kayaknya cuma orang cupat yang ngaku suka komik tapi cuma baca Conan (kayak aku gitu). Jadi karena ngeliat temen-temen yang banyak demen baca komik segala macam, aku nyobain beli komik lain selain Conan. Pertama komik Electric Daisy (Dengeki Daisy) vol 6. Udah vol 6? :o Iya, dulu aku pernah baca punya temen (lagi-lagi minjem) vol. 1-4 dan keewwl banget :* tapi karena belum minat baca komik selain Conan, aku nggak beli -__- Terus karena cepet habis, aku beli lagi dan lagi dan lagi. Love in Tokyo, Goodbye but I Love You, Love Blooms, and soon. Tapi semuanya bukan komik berseri, soalnya aku ribet nungguin seri berikutnya keluar; penasaran. Dan keajaiban lagi, aku nyoba baca novel Indonesia. Seasons in Love: Summer in Seoul, Autumn in Paris, Winter in Tokyo, dan Spring in London karya Ilana Tan. 

Trust me, it's worth to be read ;) lovestory nya menyentuh, alurnya nggak membingungkan, dibalut bahasa ringan dengan kata-kata yang indah. Haha sama sekali nggak mau sok romantis, akhir-akhir ini lagi lembek wkwk :D Nggak tau kenapa bawaannya pengen baca yang cinta-cintaan terus --a Sekarang sedang dalam proses menyelesaikan membaca keempat novel itu. Hope you have a nice holiday, like mine! ;))

awesome,

        

Actually, We Want It or Not? Just Thank God

Holidays. Something I've been waiting for. Too bored with all my school thingy. I'm tired and feeling so sick of that. I hope the holidays coming soon. And, yaa I'm running it now. Started from December, 25th 2010 until January, 3rd 2011. Just about a week haha okaay.. but still I'm relieved. I've got my report. NO COMMENT :| haha. Bad score for math and indonesian language. Both are vital lessons, and I suck in studying them. I am a bit glad of my result in first term, I mean no red ink written there. Even I said I got bad score in math, It was still not as bad as I thought.

Holidays. Sounds so much fun, if we can run it properly. Dulu waktu SMP, rasanya aku kebanyakan ngeluh kalo dikasih libur sama sekolah. Yang bosen, males, nggak ada kerjaan and *blahblahblah.. Itu mungkin karena meski nggak libur pun, sekolahku nggak terlalu padat dan sangat menyenangkan. Aku masih bisa baca novel atau komik di hari-hari efektif. Masih bisa main game atau ngumpul sama temen-temen. Jadi hari biasa pun terasa seperti liburan. Tapi sekarang? Harus terus belajar kalo nggak mau ketinggalan. Levelnya udah makin susah. Jarang libur. Jadi liburan itu bisa dibilang keajaiban. Such a miracle. Berkah juga karena itu yang aku tunggu-tunggu. Aku nggak kehabisan hal untuk bisa dilakukan dan belum bosan.

I think we should accept whatever given. There are a lotta thing we can do to fill the holiday. If we run it happily, of course we wont get bored. Dont just sighing, and sighing. Try to find anything that can make your holidays fun. Only ourselves know the way. We know best :)

y.e.a.h,

HBD @yelyahwilliams ! :))

"Happy birthday Happy birthday
Happy birthday to youu.."

Yeeaah Happy 22nd Bornday, Hayley Nicole Williams :D God Bless You all the time. Wish you all the best. Stay with Paramore, and keep lovin all Parawhores :) SUCCESS!

uupppps. btw, sorry for the late tweet, nyehee :|

crushcrushcrush,

Sixteen = Jyuurokusai = 16

Hello, I'm sixteen now.

Long time no post, and now is just my birthday.

This isn't the best birthday, nor the worst in my life. Actually I get a lot of birthday greeting this year. From sms, or say directly. I have more connections now. But no surprises.

And a very sad moment in ma birthday this year, 

We lose. No, we do not qualifiy for the final round. Yeah, it has the same meaning. Our choir couch has just announced the result. You know, he said it with a smile. Like trying to cover up sadness and dissapointment. A forced smile, as if we can't see the real meaning behind it. Well, maybe the point is he wants us to keep spirit, keep smile, don't even think about this defeat too deep. But-hey, sir you did it all in the wrong way! Do you want us to fake a smile? Haha what an ironical. I mean it will make us more sad. Pretending to be strong, hold back tears. That won't success.

Oh, my choir couch told us right on my birthday. It's 9pm now, yes, but it's still December, 21st right? What a fantastic birthday present..

The last thing is, I'm glad I could be sixteen. I'm so much grateful. I dont expect any birthday surprises, birthday cake with sixteen candles on it or party with clowns. I hope Allah gives me understanding of the essence of these sixteenth birthday. I can understand the meaning of 'given opportunity to live' more. Be better person, be a good girl. A good-behaved teenage. Be myself, and proud to be. Give me more patient, God because I will face more and more problems, level up. 

Besides, I still have my family and friends who's been so nice and friendly to me. I love you. I love myself. Thanks for the opportunity, help me run it. Love you the most, Allah SWT :)

blessings,